“Why is writing so much harder for me than it is for everybody else?” — every novelist ever, secretly to themselves, all the time
This quote is the story of my life as I’ve started walking down this path of writing. I don’t know how many times I’ve wondered what I could possibly be thinking for even trying to do this blog. And, yet, here I am. Should I be a writer? I have had times where I seriously thought this wasn’t something I was meant to do. There were so many others with so much more talent. I have very little idea of what I’m doing. I am trying to learn as I go, while making so many mistakes along the way. The biggest mistake I have made, unfortunately several times, is looking online to see about the likelihood of becoming a paid author. (Just to clarify – if you don’t want to have every positive thought or expectation crushed about something you’re interested in, do NOT ever research the likelihood of it happening on the internet!)
Should I Be A Writer
I feel that I’ve gotten past a lot of the negatives about actually doing the writing, but as I’ve started trying to learn more about the skill, I now have attacks assaulting me telling me I have no value, will never accomplish anything and have no purpose. It’s really hard to write when you have these horrible “comments” running through your head.
There are times I have wondered if my doubts are telling me I really shouldn’t be a writer. But, after reading the quote above, I realize that I am normal. Me, normal! That’s a new one. But, it made me feel better and helped me to stop questioning myself so much, at least as it pertained to continuing writing. The thing is, I have stories that keep coming to mind or instances in my life that I know I’m supposed to share. So, I keep moving forward on the path I have chosen. Or is it the path that has chosen me?
Where To Write
As I have tried to learn more about the craft, I’ve noticed that many writers need and want a quiet place to create that is specifically setup to work. I don’t have this setup in my house as things that are left out in trying to be organized have a habit of disappearing into the rooms of my boys (or wherever they decide to take whatever they want at the moment they take it). So, I am somewhat of a traveling writer. It is really funny how much my preferences change in where I need to write depending on the day, what’s happening and what I feel I’m supposed to write. There are times when I must have complete quiet and I write either in my bedroom, on my bed, with the door closed or I am sitting in a park. Other times, like tonight, I have the TV on watching So You Think You Can Dance, and I am writing in between the dances. But, what is the funniest part of it to me is that I cannot write in a Starbucks. They are way too distracting for me. It’s odd, but true. TV doesn’t distract me, but Starbucks does.
So…what should I write?
The last complexity to writing for me is what to actually write. To be a writer you have to have content and direction. I always pray about what I should focus on next. I pray and listen for God’s promptings when a thought comes to mind to assure myself that I am on the right path. It would be nice sometimes, though, if I had some ideas presented to me. In that spirit, is there anything anyone would like me to write about? Anything I’ve written you’d like me to expand on? Any concerns you’d like me to discuss? If so, please feel free to leave me a comment. I’d love to hear from you.
~ Joanna Lynn