Hello and welcome again to another time to get together to talk. It’s a gorgeous day with lots of sunshine. Today I have some chocolate pound cake from Cafe Heidelberg to offer you. Cafe Heidelberg I guess it’s called Heidelberg Haus now, but I know it as Cafe Heidelberg, so that’s what I’m calling you) is a local German place that has been around for years. Our German club in HS used to go there for their wonderful torte’s. The pound cake is yummy. So, grab what you’d like to drink and lets go sit outside.
Last week, my youngest was off for Fall break. On Monday, my oldest was also off for Rosh Hashanah (his school is off for the Jewish holidays Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur – which is this Wednesday). So, Monday we went to play putt-putt and laughed so much together. My oldest says he’s aiming at the hole but then puts the ball straight into the wall two feet from the start and not 20 feet down toward the hole. Then he would go back and forth by the hole two to four times ( I am guilty of this one as well). It was hilarious and such a good time with just the three of us.
Wednesday was Bible study. I love being with these ladies, but I was super quiet that day and actually wrote my post “I Would Have” during the study time. I was still mentally present, but it just kept going through my head and I had to write it down to get it out. The rest of the day found me in a park walking and finishing the post, while just being alone. I needed that quiet time.
Thursday was the seven year anniversary of my husband’s suicide. I told my youngest to pick a movie we could go see. And he chose…wait for it…”Suicide Squad”. I couldn’t believe it. Needless to say, I made him pick another movie. So, we saw “Deepwater Horizon”. It was a great movie and an equally great tribute to the crew, both to those who lived and died. From what I read, it didn’t sway much from the original events, but, of course, they did some. I really enjoyed the movie and my son kept looking to see if I was crying. One time he swore I was and even felt under my eyes to see if I was telling the truth. Then, the next scene came, and tears were falling. I not only cry at sad moments, but I’m also a sympathetic cryer. I remember when I was a young teen, my best friend at the time was crying and I was trying to comfort her by patting her back and telling her, “It’s going to be OK.” She said, “Then why are you crying?” I emphatically wailed, “I don’t know!” We both laughed then.
The day went pretty well, but I still ended up with a horrible stress headache. These run from my neck (where I carry all my stress) down through my shoulders and all the way up the back of my head. It was a bad one. No matter how much medicine I took, it didn’t go away. When I went into my bedroom later that night, I looked at the clock and felt the pit in my stomach as I told myself, “He was already dead at this time seven years ago.” I believe that led to a night of bad dreams so that when I woke up, my headache was still bad. I had to take my mom to an appointment and then we went to Cafe Heidelberg after my youngest and I finished studying for his German test he is to have on Tuesday. The rest of the day I laid on the couch taking medicine, trying what I could to get rid of the headache.
Saturday, the headache was gone, thankfully. I ended up cutting the front lawn and burning a bunch of limbs (I have a HUGE pile and another one in my backyard from all the storms we’ve had this year). Fire is so mesmerizing to watch. I ended up getting so much of it burned. I wanted to keep going, but the sun was getting lower in the sky and we needed to have the flames gone before we finished for the night. It was a productive and good day with beautiful weather.
So, tell me about your week. I hope everything went well for you. Did you get a lot done? Did you have some special time with friends? I’d love to hear about your week.
~ Joanna Lynn