I’m Still Learning
He made comments acknowledging what he had done, that he was sure it hurt me and made me not trust him, but instead of telling me how he was going to work to make things right or to not do the same thing again to hurt me, he told me how my being apathetic toward him hurt HIM.
Inviting Him In
It has been like inviting a friend to spend the day with me, but this is a powerful and beyond loving Friend. He has power and His love for me is more than any human can even comprehend.
Pale Facsimile
We’ve traded in the Almighty for a pale facsimile of what we want Him to look like. We’re so lost and we don’t even realize it because we believe we fit in when we lessen Who we know God to be in the name of making Him more palatable to the world. In truth, it is really ourselves that we want to seem more palatable and comfortable in the world .
My Journal
It’s really interesting to see how I expressed myself, thought and felt. One of the things I’m noticing is how much I tried to convince myself that everything was okay and that I was always at fault, to some degree, in what was happening at the time. Scott was always given the benefit of the doubt and it was always me who was the problem or wasn’t doing enough to be the “right” kind of person. I’m also seeing that the definition of the right kind of person changed a lot.
Stepping Into Life
They put me in the role of Cinderella, beneath them and in a place of servitude, rather than a fairy godmother who joyfully helps others, but is also strong and has purpose. That’s a huge difference.